Forget me Not

Yesterday I had one of those naps where if I didn't take it I wouldn't be able to function for the day so i fell into a deep sleep. The dream felt so real and yet it wasn't. I dreamed of my childhood best friend who had died 19 years ago in a car accident, her name was Stacey. I dreamt that both of us were at some sort of indoor logging and it was unclear what or where we were going. Stacey said to me that she was going to leave and I asked her why, she said she was too far away from home. Then she vanished and I so I went looking for her and realized there was no room that she had occupied. And then that is when hubby woke me up for lunch. I told him my dream and he said it sounded like a sad dream and then that's when I started to cry. I still miss her even after 19 years has passed and even after I had gotten married and have a family now. I had been thinking of her and family lately and realized that I needed to go see Shauna (Stacey's mother) and Michellle (Stacey's down syndrome sister) but then I remembered Michelle is no longer on earth that she is with Stacey now. I had been thinking that perhaps this dream was to lead me to go see Stacey's mom and bring her some flowers to apologize for missing Michelle's funeral (I was out of town with husband). Most of my dreams have no meaning or distorted but this one seemed to have stood out. I have not forgotten you; Stacey, and I shall never forget you now and forever.

Leap Day

I know Leap Day was yesterday but I wanted to post a blog and pictures anyway. I loved the fact that it was Leap Day to celebrate every four years of an extra day in February, the 29th. Of course I feel bad for those who have their birthday on Leap day because it is like their birth date has vanished and reappears every four years. But I would imagine they celebrate on the 28th instead of every four years because that would literally stink.

I was thinking I had this whole day planned of fun stuff to do for the kids but it didn't end that way. I wanted to have games and decorate with frogs and green stuff to symbolize leap day. However we had a fun day anyway! As you can see in this picture I dress Ali in St. Patrick's day clothes I got from Old Navy, it was close enough to celebrating Leap day. :) It was too adorable I had to post the picture.

Adam, the kids, and I went to the store shopping for food and

I took a picture of Keona and Ali, it is amazing to see the resemblance they definitely look like brother and sister with

the same kind of eyes!

Adam was and is the chef of the family as he usually is. He made this delicious and fantastic lemon chicken, it was unbelievably good even Tommy was eating and he is a picky eater! The fun thing about dinner was that we all sat on the floor on Keona's princess blanket and all the kids drank from sipping cups. We thought why not it is after all Leap Day, make it all the fun! :)

And last of all I made these Leap day frogs recipe I found from Pinterest. It consisted of brownies, vanilla frosting with blue sprinkles, fruit punch strips, fruit slices, spice drops, and white chocolate chips. After all the decorating was done, I stepped back and laughed with Adam we both called them my mental retarded robotic frogs. I ran out of time and didn't buy the edible eyes from Michaels to put on as frog eyes. Oh well at least they were enjoyable to eat! :) Hope everyone had a good Leap Day?!

Arby's, drunk driver, and life

I wrote this on November 16, 2009 relating to my feelings from the accident that became a life

alternating experience.

I see eyes blinking at me

Driving in bliss

I see eyes blinking at me

bright as a camera's flash

Too bright, I must let him know

Wait, don't come towards me, I am

right here.

It was as if I was invisible to his eye.

I was an ant to him ready to be swished to death.

Chaos happened, he hit me with such fierce. Panic raged

through and through me.

My blood ran cold and numbness enveloped me.

Voices came at me at every turn asking if I was

alright. "I'm alright." I thought out aloud. Fighting

within me debating I had the right of way. How could

this happen.

I was offered water, i gulped it down and felt cold

water trickle down my throat. It seemed to be the

only vital thing I could feel at that moment.

The bumpy ambulance ride was a whirl, before I

could blink there were doctors hand and foot attending

to my care. The moment I was laid down on the flat

stretcher with a brace around my neck was when I

realized the numbness I felt was in my legs.

Will I be able to chase after my kids, will I be lost

to a wheelchair for life? Then I saw his face, everything

else faded away. Suddenly I hoped all will be well again

and we could go home. Home seemed heavenly and out of

my grasp. I wanted to see my babies. My husband assured

me that they were taken care of.

Then it was back to me.

What was to happen?

Cat scan then mri, then chest x-ray, it seemed endless.

Finally the hour came, the doctor said I had no broken

bones, gave me the release to go home and be reunited

with my beloved family.

Now to this day I am in chronic pain that will probably

last until I die. We have a tank for a car, a car that I feel

safe in, so safe. Never will I go for wanting a snack so

late for I fear I will see the blinking eyes peering at me,

waiting for me.

By: Lisa Schafer

It will be three years in July since my accident as well

as Adam's accident which happened two days after mine.

The two days that changed us forever.