Dark place has no place in me

Well despite me laying down all the time from my back surgery I find it a refreshing break to just kick back and take care of myself and leave myself to my thoughts. And most of all catch up with my blog which I neglected for months. Pardon my last few blogs that I had typed the last couple days as I had been loopy on meds and in an angry mood. i however do think I have the right to be angry at the drunk driver what's his name because he doesn't seem to care about his redemption or the people he hurt in the process. But I have moved on the best I could and I won't let him put me in a dark place. I have forgiven him and actually feel sorry for him because he hasn't grown up to be a remarkable man that he could have been. I leave him in God's hands to do the judging, it is his life and what he wants to do with it is between himself and God.

I am truly grateful that I went ahead with the SI joint fusion surgery regardless of how long it takes to heal and grateful I can also do the hand surgery before Adam does his part time job and school again. I am blessed to have my husband willing to take over everything while I heal. It was the hardest thing I have ever done other than the hip surgery. I am so used to doing stuff, taking care of everyone else except me so it is bizarre to just be laying here with a heating pad and taking it easy. It's hard to have my mom and sister help me because I know they have a lot going on in their lives too. But at least the recovery time isn't too long which I am grateful for.

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